Day #3 Connection: Fair

Hi Folks,

Today I wanted to reach out to the universe as my river has been flowing at its lowest ebb for quite some time now. During these last few years I have been conscious towards a disconnection that had taken place from within me; the last few years has also seen me disconnect with the world.

Of course that’s not to say that I have completely vanished from the face of the earth, needless to say I still make cameo appearances on all of the main social networks. It’s worth mentioning that what is seen of me on these platforms is the digital me.

It’s still me of course but it’s the version of me that serves the purpose of a best bits reel on a reality show, nothing of real substance. You’ll never get the days spent in bed trapped in the seemingly never ending vortex that is ‘limbo’.

Limbo is the term I have coined for the space that lives between reality and insanity, order and chaos. It’s a most peculiar space where it is both crowded and solitary. A place that is without noise but equally busy with racing thoughts that never give you a moments peace!

I’m quite sure there are many poor souls who have not made it back from these murky depths , as the conditions are very hostile. Not to mention the mental strength needed to overcome the psychological challenges that hit you like 40 foot waves in the Atlantic. It’s difficult.

Especially when a mind has been corrupted with virus after virus, undetected, left to run riot and wreak havoc over your reasoning capabilities and internal software. I just barely made it back this time around, I felt obsolete, useless. For the first time I really analysed and balanced the weights between my own sense of purpose and point of existence.

I wrote ‘Who am I?’ that poem, around 15 years ago. I always ask myself the question because sometimes for what ever reason I forget just exactly who I am. Where do the lines of nature and nurture meet? Am I a result of my own consciousness or that of my environment?

I’m an Aquarius and we’re classically simplified as being aloof, unpredictable and visually astute. But are those attributes more in line with how I was introduced to the variables of life growing up and my reaction to that?

We therefore enter philosophy.

To analyse ones own knowledge, reality and existence is the greatest of these psychological challenges I mentioned earlier which is why as harsh as it may be, limbo is fundamental to the success of making a breakthrough.

It is a sad truth that the majority of people have no interest in finding out who they really are and are content to lead a life based upon the virtues and morals which have been bookmarked by society.

It is not to say that the majority of people do not ask the same questions but if you’re always driving me everywhere I need to go, I’ll be less inclined to drive myself.